i say world...

i say WORLDDDDDDD....

where is the boo?

setting love free.
setting love free?!

loving enough to let go.
not for you. but for them.
COSMIC! holy even.



....
i'm so special.

i know it.

reversing the universe

is entirely possible.

lets say i didn't like how things panned out the first time.

...i overreacted

...i initiated silence.

...i pretended to be indifferent.


whatever I may have done...I can still go back and push that part of ME aside.


the universe is forgiving.

feel free to go back and change your response.

you're allowed. welcomed even.


good things come when you simply do the right thing.

give good.
give good.
give good.
give good.

love.

i'm getting so good and grown.

it's quite beautiful.

respect.

good voguing makes me just sit quietly.
i feel excited and emotional.

its like watching accelerated joy.

black boots (leyomi) is a vision.

i love her.

deeply.

what's to come...

these children are mine.

and i am so thankful that i can claim them.

they make me curious about who will come out of me.

scriptless from pamela shepard on Vimeo.

head trip.

some days are easier than others.
i'm being dramatic, i digress.

starting over.
most of my days are pretty damn good.
today was a bit frustrating.
just difficult.

i stepped backwards and laid around in
the sunlight from my past.
i applied proof from yesterday to support my
wishful thinking today.
i didn't remember any hiccups or
glimpse any lingering blemishes.

i saw him clearly in my head.
and i liked what i saw.
but he wasn't really here.
just in my head.
and being just in my head is often times
more than enough.
but not today.
today sucked.


......


you all are tired of hearing about it.
so i'll be quiet.
..and just write it on my blog.
my buddy Blogger never judges me.
she/he lets me say whatever i want.

neon dye...

will

properly

conclude

this

project.

and so it is.

lights are blaring.
i'm woke.
and the dead has risen.

He bends down low to reach me.
to hold me.
to nurture me.
to comfort me.
to encourage me.
to push me.

even when i am unresponsive and limp, i am still held.



He gives. i take.
i've got to be more like Him.

.....

i must be patient with my love.

energized.

+ mesmerized.
















the pleasure seekers stumbled into berlin.

....good thing we always carry passports.