Thursday, May 13, 2010

slowwww down

its such a frustrating feeling when i cannot calm
down my overactive mind when my body is ready
to rest.

-if i haven't yet received my final answer
-if i can't see the next scene
-if i don't understand his reaction
-if i don't understand my story

i have to mentally repeat

breathe in
breathe out
breathe in
breathe out

this mind of mine is experiencing a new phase.

Monday, May 10, 2010

when you don't follow your spirit

you walk into trouble.
i absolutely HATE these moments.
i am angry at myself for not trusting myself...
and allowing someone to talk me out of myself.

i feel prisoner to proceeding in this direction...
because my mind won't swell up to think differently:
offer me alternatives
i want to bow out gracefully.

my dignity is important. is my reputation.

i've changed my mind
i've remembered my intuition
but now i'm in it.

how do i get back out?

(tick tock tick tock)