cramping hurts

my mind could not focus.
i kept flipping the pages of "who moved my cheese", anxiously
waiting for the book to end. i became lifted when kelis'
"millionaire" came on. the feeling was brief, because about
five seconds later, i began to feel nervous.

canal street stop was next.

i had made it up in my mind that if i got off the train.
walk to the front of the station. surface to street level,
and wave to the bagel vendor. walk past the deli and stand
on the corner at the stoplight. say "good morning" to the
street cleaner on wooster...then my life would be the same
daily routine. forever.

by the time the train had come to a stop, i was clear
about my next movements. i turned around, walked
to the back of the station, and surfaced. ...elsewhere.

i felt better, and actually had a more productive morning.
the best news is that now my life won't be the same daily routine.
forever.

(phew)