Monday, March 03, 2008
(a serious conversation)
everyone tonight denounced marriage.
she nows wants to explore being a lesbian.
he is convinced that he never wants to have another girlfriend.
and he (at 25) sleeps in the living room while his wife sleeps in the bedroom...divorce is quickly approaching.
her parents forced revenge upon one another by sleeping with other people.
he looks forward to being single again and fucking bitches when he gets horny.
the less words the better.
and he knows that after this run he will never marry again.
she believes that every man cheats. especially married ones.
her theory is that a man falls in love with a woman. doesn't want anyone
else fucking her. proposes. enjoys having her around. has total in house pussy.
fucks other bitches when he wants to feel something new, but always comes back to her.
he knows that he can never live with another person. he has been diagnosed with obsessive compulsive disorder, and it makes him insane when she disrupts his perfect
way of doing things. he likes the idea of having his own apartment...and having his wife next door in her own apartment...with their kids.
he has been tired of the sex. as an immigrant, she came to nyc as a student.
they fell in love...hard. they got married and had a happy two year run.
year three she started to become more of a nag, slammed too many doors, and
always made it a point to stomp her feet around the apt. now its year four
and they don't even exchange words. he just wants his money for
making her a citizen.
she wants to be admired and to invest her time and energy into someone committed to her.
he wants to eliminate all intimacy out of his life.
he wants to launch his business without any of his wife's opinions.
no one believed that my parents have been married for 37 years.
i said that they had.
no one believed that my father had not cheated on my mother.
they all agreed that both of my parents had cheated on one another.
(....i'm not on my period, and i became amazingly emotional.)
and my eyes began to water and my voice started to shake
she says "pam, i've never seen it done before. every married person
i know cheats...and when it gets unbearable they get a divorce"
he says "marriage is stupid...its too much. asking way too much. if you love someone...just live with them. but why scream 'forever'?"
he says "you're cute. i know dudes that will wife you up, just because they
would want you as their number one. you'll probably get married...it
just won't be you and only you. perhaps you and mostly you."
maybe i'm just retarded.
...i think i am retarded.
its 2008, instant gratification is everything.
a quick process.
and achieving preferred results.
....and then moving onto the next thing.
digital ...everything. career treks. overnight success. fresh direct. spray tans.
and iPHONES...that are like the remote control for life.
and now love.
"restart. refresh. reboot"