Thursday, April 27, 2006

i throw tantrums when i don't get my way....







my heart is always eager to love. i love that about me...and i hate that about me.
balance.
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God operates in seasons, and the closer we get to Her (today), the better we learn how to adjust to the time(s). Time is to be honored. Yesterday i ran up the steps and stopped dead in my tracks, and touched the sihlouette of my body, and i got chills. i announced to myself...."i love this moment...i love 22". and i do....because i know that once its gone, its gone. i am learning how to reverse situations and seek progression. i cannot be still. there is no success in wasting time. its amazing how i will have days where i can get sooooooooooo much accomplished, and weeks where i am talking more than moving.

no season is ever a bad season. each one has its perks and downfalls. everyday is blessed.
why? because God is still in control...
and that brings me absolute hope and peace.

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i've been asked to read for a part in For Colored Girls.
"i know you're a stylist, but i can foresee you having a strong stage presence. you were one
of the first people to pop into my mind".....
well....i did used to act.....
i was ranked in my county for performance....
hmmmm.....
as insecure as i am about being in the midst of trained actors, i am equally excited.
OK, ITS REALLY CUTE HOW I AM TALKING LIKE I ALREADY GOT THE PART....
i'm gonna try my best.

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when dealing with people, nine times out of ten, i have a pretty solid gaze on how our friendship/realtionship will grow. and even when i am wrong initially, i am generally pretty
pleased with our outcome.

today i am wrong. well, i am wrong for now. its amazing how easily i
get so caught in moments...knowing that this is a breif moment in time, i am good for forcing that moment to be all, end all.

even though i may be displeased with the outcome now...no parts of me doubt that this is best.
*hmph...arms folded*
so many lessons to learn.

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i am brilliant.
i am gorgeous.
i am talented.
i am fabulous.
~God's daughter.

***i've been reading random people's blogs lately...its amazing how many DOPE people the world hosts. its beautiful.


...cute, happy belated. that was fun.

1 comment:

Alii said...

aww for colored girls(i still aint read it)- let me know if you get it so we can applause obnoxiously in the audience while you're reading