Saturday, March 18, 2006

my very first child.

8 women that i love...are now pregnant.
at first it was exciting, but as the numbers grew, it became a bit alarming. i had never known so many pregnant women, at once, and everyone between the ages of 18-30. it is so interesting how women take on the traits of who they share company with...as a result, i am too pregnant.

its crazy.
i know for a fact that something is growing inside me. this now consumes my thoughts, i envision our future and everything that is to come. i can't say that i'm overly confident, but i am 100% hopeful. it kind of concerns me that i am not overly confident, but he told me "KNOW that failure is never an option". and i do know this. the realm of the unknown is just so ... big. my thoughts shift daily. i often lose focus, and get off track. i am truly uncomfortable. uncertain. and for this to be coming from me, i oddly feel as though i, myself am not completely involved (weird, i know).

i will prepare
i will commit
i will study

so i move forward
.....
"everyone should carefully observe which way his heart draws him, and then choose that way with all his (or her) strength" -hasidic saying

i choose to move towards being an independent stylist.
get website in order
peter simon
why does this stick with me so tough?
...figure it out.

......
the art of the start
-guy kawasaki

2 comments:

fruitfly4 said...

will you be anywhere near spelman in the coming week? it would be lovely to see you. i have some very important, style related questions to ask.

Alii said...

glad to see youre back. Does htis mean that youll be rockin the maternity wear? heheheheh