when you don't follow your spirit

you walk into trouble.

i absolutely HATE these moments.

i am angry at myself for not trusting myself...

and allowing someone to talk me out of myself.

i feel prisoner to proceeding in this direction...

because my mind won't swell up to think differently:

offer me alternatives

i want to bow out gracefully.

my dignity is important.

...as is my reputation.

i've changed my mind

i've remembered my intuition

but now i'm in it.

how do i get back out?

(tick tock tick tock)