instinct is a priceless guide.
resistance against what feels right
is a waste of my time.
this is fact:
if i do my part (and do it well)
then i am progressing.
that's all i really need to know.
and its honestly good enough for me.
i have enough past proof to trust this fact.
my vision is hazy.
there was a time when this frustrated me,
i wanted to know what i was working towards.
because then i would know what steps to take
to get there.
i envied zora neale hurston who had
flashes of scenes that would take place in
days/years/decades to come. she had a
sense of her future.
that hasn't been my life and that's fine.
i am now cool with being partially blind.
i just think about the type of
work that i want to be doing...and give thanks
for being able to live that now.
i do have one clear detail about what's to come.
i want it to be bigger than me...
if other people can eat off of this work, then
a full harvest will have been reaped.
that will be a testament to my patience and persistence.
mama fed me. and her mama fed her.
... i too plan to feed a lot of folks.