noted

according to my gmail archives (which represent a huge part of my life)

i say the word "keep" far more than i say "release".

about 5 times more.

i gotta get over being so hesitant about letting things go.

from whichever way you look at it.

you can't turn me away.

excitedly, the model asked...ARE YOU FRENCH TOO?

"nope...i'm american. a black girl from maryland...."

-"WHERE!?!"

(smile)

......

my critique of the day:

Beau style, étrange et élégant !

oh to be called both strange and elegant!

dad said

no one is going to represent you like you.

stay present.

people will remember you pam.

and if necessary, don't shy away from reminding them.

...i know you did it for christmas. did you market

yourself for valentines day?

......................

i love that man.

strategy

feel it out.

lurk...and ease into spaces.

less face.

make magic.

.....

i am finding my power.

sharing my gifts.

i am always drawn to color

but these days i am seeing so much in black in white.

even the things that ordinarily offer color.

i am liking this phase...i am learning so much about

texture, patterns, silhouettes, and composition.

....

a long time ago a seasoned stylist told me

"watch the mary tyler moore show...you will

learn everything about color theory. the

director was color blind, and the palette of

that show has such a system."

she also suggested study i love lucy to learn about contrast.

(head bowed)

...

...i had to.

why am i 26?

i like young boys these days.

i feel like he could take care of me.

(am i out of line right now?)

....

30+ dudes...take notes.

this is very important.

gucci spring 10

..that is all.

working artists.

rappers releasing albums.

photographers getting published.

promoters promising a good time.

art directors entering a residency.

designers honoring specs.

filmmakers screening movies.

models traveling the world.

writers speaking on panels.

installation artists creating spaces.

architects building.

...

things are brewing. taking shape.

our dreams are not deferred.

we are hustling, strategizing, praying our way through.

expecting desired outcomes.

i wish us all the best.

its all practice

beauty. (i think)

what are you so afraid of?

what he thinks?

silence?

what she says?

how mama and daddy respond?

....

....

get into yourself.

get into yourself.

get into yourself.

....

it's really important that you do pamela.