just this moment...

rejection is becoming apart of my daily schedule...
i really try not to internalize the "no thanks", and move on...
but i can't right now.
i feel dull.
my heart is heavy.
as much faith and optimism that i SCREAM....
right now feels awful.
it's becoming hard for me to open reply emails.
i just stare at the subject line...mentally
scolding myself for expecting the worst.
...but each time, it's always the worst.
i am broken.
my thoughts are so cloudy...and my focus
is non existant.

i cry because this realityis uncomfortable.
constant rejection....
i keep saying, well if you want something different, try
something different. i'm running out of ideas.
i know what i want to do...
just struggling to get it done.

.....

give thanks.

upgrade...

i am no longer the friend that crashes at THE FRIEND'S house.
got my own....
if we love one another...and you're ever in ny...GET AT ME!

the little ladies...

i actually didn't appreciate her ridiculous sass on this day.